Holidays after Grief or Loss

13 December 2019

2019 has been an interesting year. It feels like life has been transitional for me this last couple of years with some many major life events hitting me back-to-back.

  • Loss of parent
  • Job insecurity
  • Birth of baby
  • Job Change
  • Twins school change
  • Baby involuntary daycare change (the old one shut down)
  • Chronic insomnia
  • and a bunch of random sh*t in between all that
Phew! My head should be spinning with all this action but it's not. Not right now. Right now I feel like I'm finally at the end of this nausea-inducing season and stepping into a fresh and joy-filled life in 2020. Can I get an AMEN?!

I'm excited to be doing the things I love again like blogging and celebrating Christmas. I'm so glad to be back to enjoying them but as a different person - calmer, simpler, more "zen". Yes, I want to start blogging regularly again because hell, I like writing about my kids, parenting, stuff I bought and everything I'm learning in this thing called life.

And Christmas? I used to be a teenager who started playing Christmas carols in July. The last few years though, I've outwardly celebrated Christmas and inwardly been missing the joy. Not this year though. This year, there's no outward celebration of Christmas in casa MyTwintopia. No decorations are up. No lights on the balcony; even the Christmas tree isn't up yet (and at this rate, it just may stay in the basement till next year Christmas). I've not purchased a single Christmas present (if you're reading this, sorry fam!).

On the inside however, I'm happier about this Christmas than I've been in a long time. I'm looking forward to spending time with family. I haven't bought my kids any presents but I think they're going to have fun.

Life is beautiful because it's SIMPLE. That's the word that encapsulates the world I've transitioned into. Simple days, simple nights, complicated choices that lead to a simpler life. Feels good y'all. 

Is anybody out there? Merry Christmas to you and may all your blessed dreams come true this New Year. 

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